I am a fading rainbow, whose colors you can’t see.
Searching for my pot of gold, or at least who I’m supposed to be.
Isn’t it funny how a rainbow appears when a storm is on the wane?
Colors paint the sky in peace, displacing thunder’s pain.
Lost in my own sadness, missing the life that I once knew,
The base of the rainbow sits down low, its cornerstone is blue.
The color of darkness and gloom, it was once a warm, loving place.
Now, in depression and woe, blue is something I embrace.
Out of the darkest of shadows, green becomes a visible hue.
Its passion is envy, lost in reality, but wanting to be more, true.
Envy is a strong emotion that no one can tangibly see.
It’s that torment, that angst that question, “Who am I supposed to be?”
So confusion turns to anger, and ugliness rears its head.
The color of the thoughtless deeds and spiteful words is red.
Rage overtakes good judgment, rushing rivers over rock and silt.
Crushing hearts and spirits, along the way, bleeding red, denying guilt.
I am looking for a haven, a spot to find solace, to think.
A fairytale place, where nothing hurts, the color of which is pink.
The numbness gives way, in time, to embarrassment and shame.
A blushing rose whose petals are wilting, pink is my name.
At the top of the colorful rainbow, stands the softest yellow tier.
Reaching upwards toward the sky, overwhelmed with consummate fear.
That what lies beyond the rainbow, with its reds and greens and blues,
Will leave only the trace of yellow, in an old and vanishing bruise.
I am a fading rainbow, whose colors you can’t see.
Searching for my pot of gold, or at least who I’m supposed to be.
Isn’t it funny how a rainbow appears when a storm is on the wane?
Colors paint the sky in peace, displacing thunder’s pain.